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December 3rd, 2003


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sweetjayguitar
06:11 am
A familiar scent came through the doors of the club, Willow’s.
My eyes followed her as she crossed the room to Lorne, directly to him. She knew him.
I looked back to my drink and downed it before getting up and crossing the floor (after she was done talking to Lorne) to where she was/

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From:willow1181
Date:December 4th, 2003 06:51 am (UTC)

what can I say

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Lorne's advice was as always on the mark, Oz may not know about Tara's death, but I could never allow him to think we could get back together, It wouldn't be fair to give him false hope, Lorne moves away as Oz approaches the gentleman as ever
"Oz?" I question lightly even though It seems silly so I don't wait for him to confirm it
"Hey" I look around the club and see and empty booth close to where we stand so I motion to it
"Do you want to take a seat?" I feel we have so much to talk about so much to catch up on . I look forward to hearing about his travels
But I also feel strangely nervous around him..... I don't know why
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From:sweetjayguitar
Date:December 4th, 2003 06:57 am (UTC)

Re: what can I say

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I could feel her nerves, I could smell every emotion she was going through.

"Hey."
I went with her to the empty table and took a seat across from her.
I wanted so badly to be with her but I knew I never could be. I've tormented my life with that single thought.

Start with teh simple questions. "How've you been?"
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From:willow1181
Date:December 4th, 2003 03:59 pm (UTC)

Re: what can I say

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I cleared my throat
"I'm good....I've only been in LA for a few weeks, Lorne came up with this great idea about opening a magic shop up stairs from the club... so i'm settling down.. how about you?..... you planning on staying in LA for a while?" I ask curiously
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From:sweetjayguitar
Date:December 4th, 2003 04:07 pm (UTC)

Re: what can I say

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"For right now I'm staying in a hotel, not quite sure what I'm doing."
Why did this feel so uncomfortable? Because I still loved her even when I knew it wasn't returned?
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From:willow1181
Date:December 4th, 2003 04:20 pm (UTC)

Alcohol driven honesty

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I didn't understand it, it was never meant to be like this,being with Oz was had never been hard for me, a waitress passed and I stopped her
"Can I have a double Vodka and coke in a tall glass please?" I looked to Oz, he may have been surprised at my order but with him you couldn't tell
"you want anything?" I waited for him to order and the waitress moved away to fetch the drinks
"I'm sorry Oz.... I know this is my Fault... I never meant for us to feel uncomfortable around each other"
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From:sweetjayguitar
Date:December 4th, 2003 04:32 pm (UTC)

Re: Alcohol driven honesty

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"I'll have the same." I told the waitress.

"I never said it was your fault."
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From:willow1181
Date:December 4th, 2003 04:47 pm (UTC)

Re: Alcohol driven honesty

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"isn't it?... if I hadn't changed the way I did." but I Stop knowing that I couldn't help the way I felt, knowing that even if it meant being happy here with Oz I would never change who I had become, Being with Oz had been special but being with Tara.... Well that was like coming home....
"Will we be able to become friends?" just then the waitress came and put our drinks on the table in front of us, I stop her before she moves away
"Leah, can you bring the same again?" I ask the young woman, she's been working at Lorne's for a few months, and we had spoken a few times
"Sure Willow" she answers with no smile, sensing the tension between the guitar player and myself, I return my eyes to Oz and took a long drink of the sweet liquid in front of me, Vodka had never been a drink I had enjoyed before moving to LA, and I realize how much of an influence the green guy has obviously had over me
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From:sweetjayguitar
Date:December 4th, 2003 04:57 pm (UTC)

Re: Alcohol driven honesty

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I had gotten used to liquor and drinks, probley to used to it. Spending time on ships at night when there was nothing to do a poker game and a couple of drinks kept us company.
"Never knew you for a drinker, but alot has changed."
I took a swig of my drink.
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From:willow1181
Date:December 4th, 2003 05:06 pm (UTC)

Re: Alcohol driven honesty

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I look down at the drink in my hand, he's right I'm not a big drinker, so why I'm doing this is a mystery even to me.... nervse?... I wonder, but he doesn't need to know that, I noticed he never answered My question and for some reason it makes me think that the answer will be no, and my hopes of Finding an active friendship with Oz dwindles as fast as my drink, the thought makes me sadder than I knew possible and in a small way angry, angry at him for not trying harder, for not being the understanding guy he always came across as..... and maybe not loving me enough.... but I stop myself and remember that it was me who moved on, when he came back for me I was already in the arms of someone else, I think my anger may be misplaced but I can't move it just now as I take another drink, i nod my head
"Yeah a lot has changed..... it's hard to know where to begin"
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From:sweetjayguitar
Date:December 4th, 2003 05:13 pm (UTC)

Re: Alcohol driven honesty

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I could smell her anger.
"Lets start with us.
I want to be friends still." well actually I wanted more then that but it wasn't going to happen that way.
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From:willow1181
Date:December 4th, 2003 05:18 pm (UTC)

Re: Alcohol driven honesty

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"us?" I questioned wondering what he meant, I considered all forms of "Us"..... friend "us" or couple "us"
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From:sweetjayguitar
Date:December 4th, 2003 05:24 pm (UTC)

Re: Alcohol driven honesty

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"individually."
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From:willow1181
Date:December 4th, 2003 05:32 pm (UTC)

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"individually?" I was repeating his words like an idiot, the alcohol may be kicking in a finish my drink as Leah appears out of no where with another
"Thanks Leah" I say before wondering where to start
"Well let me think .... since we last spoke,I became addicted to magic, Tara was shot and killed, I turned evil and tried to destroy the world, but I'm over that now.... then we closed the hellmouth and destroyed Sunnydale.... I would miss out going home if I where you, Xander lost an eye, I did date someone else... but it didn't work out.... we traveled around the country a bit before Lorne persuaded me to settle down here...... how about you?.... been busy?"
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From:sweetjayguitar
Date:December 4th, 2003 05:38 pm (UTC)

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"Haiwii, Australia, Japan, China, Tibet, England and a few places in between. I traveled the world. "Not looking for a cure anymore."
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From:willow1181
Date:December 9th, 2003 06:13 am (UTC)

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The silence stretched between us and I wasn't sure what to say next so I winged it .... saying anything just wanting to put words into the space between us
"I was in England last Summer for a few months..... nice place" he still wanted to be friends and I knew then we would have to work on it if we where ever going to make it work!

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